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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Cap Location: Oklahoma, United States Birthday: 5/8/1986 Gender: Male Interests: Bass Expertise: Bass. Computers. Bootlegging Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs Message: message meEmail: email me Website: visit my website AIM: capb223 MSN: some_guy_903@hotmail.com Member Since: 5/9/2003

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

So, I was reading some of my past posts here, as you do when you have no life whatsoever. Anyway, it was weird, because I could see myself, and see myself change according to what was happening in my life. My writing style and content appreantly changed with my attitude and feeling. I could literally trace what was going on in my life at that point by reading back among the posts. If anything it was a weird sensation, just to trace things back in a way that was as objective as I could possibly be about myself. Just odd.

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Monday, February 27, 2006

If you're down and confused
And you don't remember who you're talkin' to
Concentration slips away
'Cause your baby is so far away

Well there's a rose, in a fisted glove
And the eagle flies with the dove
And if you can't be with the one you love, honey
Love the one you're with X4

Don't be angry, don't be sad
Don't sit cryin' over good times you had
There's a girl, right next to you
And she's just waiting for something to do

And there's a rose, in the fisted glove
And the eagle flies with the dove
And if you can't be with the one you love, honey
Love the one you're with X3

Love the one you're with X4

Turn your heartache right into joy
She's a girl, and you're a boy
So get it together, make it nice
You ain't gonna need, any more advice

And there's a rose, in the fisted glove
And the eagle flies with the dove
And if you can't be with the one you love, honey
Love the one you're with X4

Hey, hey, hey ,hey
Ohhh...

Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down

Will you recognise me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh.....

Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security

Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away

Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on - call my name
Will you all my name?

MUAHAHAHA :)

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

So. I've figured my lot in life is to take care of the people that need it. Regardless whether it drives them up a wall or not ;). And I definantly owe someone for takeing care of me tonight. Though I've taken care of a couple of people tonightt, the person that took care of me deserves everything in the world. She's been so great its almost unfathomable. I've figured i've taken care of everyone i've ever tried with. Iriene, Shawna, Faith, Stephanie, and Maddie. And every one of these people deserves everything in the world. So increadibly sweet it isn't even imaginable. I'd run through the gates of hell through these girls if it would serve them well, and i'd come right back for the same reason. And now most of them have all moved on and I couldn't be more proud. Still works in progress, but no doubt in the world that any of them will have any issues in the world. I know each of them will be perfectl y fine, even after i'm gone, though i'm already gone for some of them. I'll be gone for all of them at some point soon, but I still trust and have faith in all of them. Everybody believed we coud never be. I owe them all so much they could never know. They'll all find their way and I couldn't be more proud to have helped them along. The fun part for me is that all of them (except for shawna) would never admit that i've got them compeletly figured out. But i'd never spill anyting i've learned about them. You can't very well earn someone's trust and lose it by spilling ones guts just for kicks. For every night I dream the more I do belive. I couldn't say enough about any of these girls besides how much love I have for each of them. Like I said before, i'd take myself through the gates of hell and back by their sides. None of you could ever know how much respect and devotion I have to each of them.

For myself though, the name that is missing is Megan. Many of you reading have no idea who she is or how much of a differance she has made in my life. Much of the way I am now, for better or for worse is because of her. It is becase of her I am the way I am now. I promsed her that I would hate everyone, and be a complete dickhead so it would be easier to come back to her. Now that she is gone I have no idea how to go back to the way I was. Nor do you have any idea how much I would give to be back with her regardless of how things really were, wheter I made things up, or how thing really were. I know I don't have a very easy time discussing things, but people need to know how much I respect and love these girls. Maddie, Nina, Shawna, Faith, Stephanie and Megan.My life up to this point has been defined by these people Not passive resistance, not pot, not Hawaii or anything else, but these people. And if you're reading this i'd stand by you through hell and back.

And Megan. She's the girl with the blue hair who has defined the last three years of my life. I love you girls, I really do. I know the latter part of the people i've mentioned may have a hard time believeing what i've read but it doesn't really matter because its true. You could put it to what ever test you'd like and I promise you'd get the same results. No matter what decision you make i'll be on your side through thick and thin. Some of you may be unsure on a day to day basis, but i'll be with you, even if you think i'm a bastard who thinks I have problems with commitment (maddie :). Like it or not i'll be with you forever :)

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Thursday, January 05, 2006

	Still waiting for the girl with blue hair.
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Monday, November 28, 2005

"Ladies and Gentlmen, Elvis has left the building"

Christ, how famous do you have to be for someone to say that about you?

So, at some point between last night, and tonight, that I was never the person I claimed to be, I only remember the times that I cared about, in which I was that person. But before those times, and since, i've been the same. I'll know i'll never be able to adquetly explain myself and what i'm really talking about, so I probably won't try anymore. I'll never be able to explain why I couldn't to all in and do what I promised. I won't be able to explain how severly not doing so has effected me. Even today I lie, and for the love of God I can't figure out why. Even today I act like i'm not going to fold under the pressure that I bring on myself, when really I collapsed a long time ago. One day i'll wake up and realize she isn't ever going to show up again, in some romantic happy-go-lucky film scene. I'll figure out I can't will things into existance, and can't will events to happen. As much as I would love to make anybody that wanted to experince what i've experienced, I can't, so nobody could possibly understand. Someday i'll realize what Cap means, and who that guy was.

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